My babies

I know most parents think this, but I have to say there's something magical about my children. Maybe it's the innocence in their eyes or their smile when they look at me. I just feel like they are here to do good. Like their so purpose in life is to make the world a better place. People seem to fall in love with them and not in that fake "we have to pretend we like them" way, but an honestly become smitten with them.

I love my children and am so blessed to have them. I never liked kids and wasn't dying to have any. David and I had discussed having kids but it was a if it happens it happens kind of mentality. It's a lot of work having kids. People say that and it's one of those things that you kind just say "Yeah yeah yeah...how hard can it really be?" I had no idea! They are a handful.

Especially Lex because he's two and mobile. Lucy however is really attached to me for some reason. I have to be in her line of sight or else she freaks out. I ran out to pick up dinner for us the other week and when I came home David said that he just calmed her down because she frreaked out as soon as I left. She's giving him a complex. I think she's just a "mommy's girl". I love being a wife and a mom. If anyone had told me what I was in for even six years ago, I would've said you're crazy! I had no idea my life would change so drastically. I guess to put it a different way, I feel like my life started.

I don't want you to get me wrong. I'm not one of those women who is more in love with their children then they are their own husband. My identity isn't as David's wife or Lex and Lucy's mother. I am still me. I still want to be social away from my family. I am thinking of my future which is why I've gone back to school. I've decided that I will continue on to Law School after I complete my degree. I would just say marrying David and having our babies has made me more dimensional. I'm not as superficial as I used to be. However I still judge people by their shoes.

Political rant

As I have said many times I am a republican. Card carrying member since 1998. Even before then I was a republican. I was born into a family of republicans. I am a Marine Brat whose father worked at HMX and got the honor of serving the last good President we had Ronald Reagan.

I don't always agree with my party, Michelle Bachmann annoys me. I really don't like Sarah Palin. I don't agree with my parties views on same sex marriage. Someone give me a reason why gay people shouldn't get married that does not involve the "Bibles" definition. I do think that the health care industry needs an overhaul. I'm for the right to own a gun. Why? There are bad guys everywhere. You're telling me that if you get guns out of homes that the bad guys aren't going to get them elsewhere? You are delusional. Especially since the economy is so bad that in some towns they can't afford to have a fully staffed police department. You bet your sweet behind I am going to have a gun to protect my babies. Anyone breaks into my house and endangers my family will be shot.

I am also pro-life. That is as far as I willing to talk about it. I once saw someone post something along the lines of "if you are pro-life you are only kidding yourself. You are anti-choice." I will resist the urge to punch that person in the face next time I see them. That would be as ridiculous as me posting "If you are pro-choice you are only kidding yourself. You are pro-death."

I also think that it is ridiculous that they want to raise the taxes on the wealthy. Why? I mean seriously why? They earned that money and they do pay taxes. There is this stupid posting put out by Elizabeth Warren. Yes, the rich didn't get rich on their own. But you know what? They still pay taxes. You want to raise taxes for corporations? Guess what will happen? That's right more jobs will be sent overseas. Why? Because the labor is cheaper and they won't have to pay taxes. So how will this fix the economy? Oh that's right it won't. I'm not going to give the knee jerk response that most conservatives would and call her a communist. I will instead just say I strongly disagree with her.

You want to fix the economy and bring down the unemployment rate? How about you give the big corporations more tax breaks as an incentive to bring the jobs back to America! Duh.

I find it amusing that all these politicians are vilifying the wealthy when they themselves are richer then I will probably ever be. I personally think it's a joke. Talk to me about raising the taxes on the wealthy when a.) They stop giving themselves pay raises that they clearly don't deserve b.) get the spending under control and c.) All of them stop pointing fingers and blaming the other party. They are all idiots and remember what they say about pointing a finger...there's always three pointing back.

I don't know a lot about politics. I don't like to hear other peoples opinions. I know I'm contradicting myself by writing a post about it but at least you have the option to not come read my blog. I will simply end this post with a quote from Reagan.

"Government's first duty is to protect the people, not run their lives."

Ronald Reagan

My hump my hump

I wish my butt was back up where it used to be. It moved to Miami when I wasn't looking.

The future....

Since I was a little girl I have always stared out windows and daydreamed. I always dream about my future and where I am going and what I will be doing. I used to daydream about what my husband would look like and if I would have children. I always thought about where I would be living and what job I would have. Even now I stare out my window. I'm still thinking about the future and where we will be going. Who's my next friend that I am going to meet. What will our first house we buy look like. What my children will look like and what will they be when they are grown. My conversations with David are always about our future. I'm always planning. I find it exciting. I know that they say "Today is a gift and that's why it's called the present." But to me thinking about the future is like that moment when you get a gift and it's wrapped up and you have no idea what's in it.

Whenever I think about the future I'm always happy. My life always seems happy. Maybe it's because I like to look at the glass as half full. There is a lot about me that has changed over the past few years. I don't know why but it has. I've decided that there is no point in walking around with a chip on my shoulder. There is no point on focusing on the past because I can't change it. Yet my outlook for the future has always remained consistent. It's always bright. What do you picture when you think about the future? I always see the sun rising, there's always a breeze and it's always warm. There's always a lightness to me. I'm always fulfilled. I'm always smiling. When I think about the future the feeling I get is almost like a rush or like in your favorite song when it builds up to the crescendo.

I think for me thinking about the future is a coping mechanism I developed. It's been on overdrive since June 2001 when I moved back here. I have always thought about the future and where I would be living. Whatever it is, it makes me happy. I'm just curious about what people see when they think about the future. Maybe I'm the only one who does this. To some the future can be overwhelming. To me it's a comfort.

Annnnnnd.....

I've been medicated. I'm on Zoloft. Stupid Postpartum...

A plug...

Just letting anybody who reads this blog (I'm not sure who does) but I've started up my Skinny Girl To Be blog. I totally have been working out and totally just did 1,000 crunches. What up?!!!

The Education of Mrs. Garcia

What is up everybody? How are we all doing? Good, glad to hear it. Oh that's so sad. Yada yada yada.

La Lucia is 5 weeks and one day old. She's so big! Fussy...got a bit of an attitude and always dressed fashionably. Oh god...she may just turn into a mini me!

But that's not why I am writing this blog. I did it! After years of saying I would, I finally did. That's right I am a registered college student. I even declared my major...Legal Studies. So in roughly about three years and a month (if I don't take a break that is) I will have a B.S (tee hee).

I am currently registered for four classes. The first two start July 4th. One is a required course by the school. Basically this is how you go to school online dummy! The other one I registered for was World Religions. I have always been fascinated with other religions. Then after that it's onto College Algerbra (Lord grant me the strentgh) and an English writing class. Which I am really looking forward to because my grammar skills have gone down the tubes.

I'm eager to start. I figure my story will be able to maybe influence Lex and Lucy. The whole wandering around aimlessly in dead end jobs for ten years hopefully will convince them that that isn't the life they want. It sure as hell isn't what I want.

I'm really looking forward to the big money I can make with my degree at the law firms in Seattle. So right now I have all these cheesy motivational sayings going through my head like "The tassle is worth the hassle" "Goonies never say die!"

I just like that I waited until I was married with two kids and a house to run before going back to school. I never said I do things the easy way....sigh.

Onwards and upwards !!!